Better

I didn't have a word to say,
I couldn't find my pen today.
You tried to make me look so small,
You just don't care for me at all.

I lost the faith I thought I had,
I got reminded of my dad.
You turned my pockets inside out,
You tell me truths I have to doubt.

Is it better to need, and not have,
Or to have, and don't need?
Is it better to want, and not get,
Or to get, and not want?

I see you climbing on my bed,
I wait so long, I'd though you dead.
You never seem to notice me,
You still wont ever set me free.

I watched the fires burning low,
I had no sticks of wood to throw.
You bring me nothing new to burn,
You laugh and say I've yet to learn.